Friday, 1 January 2010

Happy New Year?

I do not intend to be morbid today, but unfortunately I am one of those people who suffer badly from depression during the festive season. While most folk are out party-ing and generally having a good time, I find myself feeling increasingly sad and definitely not in the mood for fun.

This time of year seems to focus the mind on some very negative things and it takes a supreme effort for me to get out of it. While everyone is looking back at the year past and making their new years resolutions with the hope of actually being able to stick to them this year... I find myself stuck at the looking back bit.

This year especially I have been reminded of how fleeting and fragile it all is and acutely aware of how important it is to 'sieze the day' I start to panic because the 'day' seems to be already gone and I somehow lost it. I know that in a few days I will start to feel better and begin to get it all together again but every year I promise myself that I will not do this again... and every year, here I am in the exact same spot as last year, wishing it would all just go away. sigh. Bear with me folks, normal service will be resumed shortly. :-)

3 comments:

  1. Ah, Billie Jane :(

    I know a couple of people who get quite down at this time of year due to the long, dark nights and grey, sunless days.

    Things must have been hard for you the past couple of days as well :(

    Take care x

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  2. I know what you mean, I find this time of year a bit depressing and would rather stay away from people because the only topic of conversation they have is flippin Christmas.I get so fed up of everyone being dragged along by it all. Keep your chin up Jane, not much longer, hopefully.

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  3. This is the very like the post I have been meaning to write, but I just haven't had the motivation-ha! In other words, I am right there with you. I'm sure the loss of Bella has your heart aching. This time of year, I feel like I am just slogging through life-and this year, most especially. May 2010 bring us all good things.

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